My ex-boyfriend used to break up with me a lot. Like every three months, a lot. I could always feel it coming. It was like a death beetle strumming its feet across my chest, causing my heart to race and making it hard to breathe. Eventually I started beating him to the punch. One night …
I always felt things in a big way. My emotions had a way of taking over me. Rage would fill my lungs and send me screaming to the ocean in the dark when I thought no one could hear me. Sadness would spill from my eyes for the whole world to see. Anxiety would hijack …
Ashley Sinden exhaled her last breath on her hospital bed as I inhaled a hit from a joint intended to be smoked in her honor in my apartment in San Diego. I wouldn’t get the news until the next morning. She must have visited me that night and told me to light it up so …
We like to use lines like “you don’t owe anyone anything” to get out of dealing with emotionally charged situations. Lines like that are designed to validate poor behavior. No, we don’t owe anyone anything. It’s not really about that. The path to finding love shouldn’t be paved with those left scorched and shattered by …
I keep waiting for something to happen. Anything. A glimmer of hope to guide me out of the dark corridor I find myself fumbling through. Everyone always talks about the door that closes in order for another to open. But what they fail to mention is the wait in the hallway. Doors don’t just open …
Stop giving other people your unsolicited love advice. In fact, stop listening to other people’s love advice. I know you’re afraid of falling that deep again. Of feeling that stupid again.Or, of feeling that broken again. I know you think if you just read that self-help book, or listen to that dating coach, or set …
I’ve always wanted to be enough for someone. A girl worthy of moving mountains for. A girl radiant enough to stand out amongst the crowded room. A girl worth the pains of long distance. A girl worthy of time. And attention. And affection. And LOVE. A girl beautiful enough. Smart enough. Accomplished enough. Funny enough. …
March 23, 2020 March 23, to most people, is just another day. It doesn’t hold any significant value to the general public. But it was a day I gave meaning to during the brighter days of summer circa 2019 when the days were warm, and everything seemed possible. Except, the sun would rise and set …
The thing about healing that people fail to mention is that making the right decision can be just as painful as staying in your toxic behavior. Walking away from those that no longer serve you isn’t the power move they make it out to be. The reality is sometimes those who no longer serve you …
Sometimes I think God forgot to make me a soulmate. Which would’ve been fine had he granted me indifference and a preference for solitude. Instead, he sent me to Earth infused with a desire for love so great sometimes I’d settle for even the tiniest hint of it. Anxious attachment – a term used to …